I'll walk a mile for an Emily

Epic Salesman

2011-11-26T19:37:00.003+11:00

Kenny Brooks. Super epic salesman. The stuffs he said had me in stitches!

I just want to remember my favorite lines from him so tried my best to listen and write down what (I think) he said.

" Who does this ____ to the window? The kids, the dogs, or the ugly black guys that eat fried chicken?"

"And I got a disease call enthusiasm so Im'ma cut straight to the mustard."

" Don't laugh too hard 'cuz the neighbors gonna see this black kid scrubbing your window okay."

" My mom said if it's darker than me and they don't pay the bills they shouldn't be there right?"

" Dude we just upgraded to like Beyonce."

" Look, you just go back and forth like an argument."

" Now I ain't Jesus but look how I split that like Moses did to Red Sea."

" Paint me green call me a pickle."

" One bottle lasts longer than my last relationship."

" It ain't Jesus in a bottle."

Mom," What are you selling?"

Kenny," Personality."

" Unlike Madonna, it's never been touched."

Kenny," What ya'll do for a living? Ya'll must be on sales too huh?"

Dad," Kind of."

Kenny," I know 'cuz your house is bigger than my whole neighborhood."

" My Pa said if you can't get the whole chicken at least get the wing right?"

" Hi five dad see you sharper than a Gilette."

Kenny," I like you Ma. You must be a teacher."

Mom," No."

Kenny," 'Cuz you got a lot of class."

" But I tell you what I can do. If ya'll get the one bottle Im'ma throw in a free Mary Kate Christian Dior Calvin Klein Louis Vuitton spray bottle to go with."

" It's going to go from '79 to 2010."

" Remember I told you it won't fade colors, remember? That's why we can't sell it to Michael Jackson."

" 'Cuz your neighbors been working me like I'm black and paying me like I'm Mexican."

" You can use it on everything. Only thing you can't use it on is dirty mind, dirty soul, nosy neighbors. That's why we ain't call it Jesus in a bottle."

" You could do cash, cheque or chicken wings."

低等人類

2011-10-30T19:03:00.008+11:00

來到 KL 的日子呢，已經過了整兩個月。

問我好玩嗎？學到很多東西嗎？爽嗎？

當然爽，可以做自己比較喜歡的工作性質，也順便美化我的 resume，還有這邊學一下那邊學一下

另一個角度看，比較消極的，我學到了一個東西，那就是。。。

我是低等人類一文不值不值一提

人真的很愛比較，甚麼都可以拿來比，不管有多大多小。如果有耐心看我這個低等人類寫的經驗，就繼續往下讀吧

先從大的開始講吧

從這個世界的角度來講，如果你是紅毛人 vs 如果你是華人

某某外國人：你們哪裡來的？

外國人 A：美國

外國人 B：澳洲

外國人 C：挪威

於是四位外國人就聊得起勁

我：。。。

大約過了 20 分鐘，每個人沈默

某某外國人：那你來自中國嗎？

我：馬來西亞

某某外國人：噢。＊轉頭＊那英國那個@⋯⋯@＃＄＃＄％＊＄％⋯⋯

身為華人，常常受到這種對待

底人一等

在澳洲，跟當地人聊天，英文程度雖然 okay，但是再怎麼說也不是自己的母語

那些紅毛都不想鳥你

況且你是那個不起眼的華人（告訴你，不管你多認識他們，他們在街上認不出你是誰來，就算在學校走廊也是）

底人一等

在亞洲人當中，

某某外國人：你們哪裡來的？

亞洲人 A：日本

某某外國人：哇！你呢？

我：馬來西亞

某某外國人：噢。＊轉頭＊那日本那個@⋯⋯@＃＄＃＄％＊＄％⋯⋯

看得出差別嗎？發展中國家，人家都不鳥

身為東南亞＋發展中國家人，常常在外國受到這種對待

底人一等

馬來西亞分別有東馬和西馬

也許不是每一個人，但常常傳說西馬人瞧不起東馬人

因為東馬人住在樹上

不文明

有吃人族

去西馬都是坐鱷魚

是個落後的地方

身为热爱中文的独中生

外面人觉得独中生英文和国文差到不行

中国人也觉得你们这些半桶水

馬來西亞華人也常常愛問，欸你是甚麼色人？

“ 我是福州人。”

“ 噢福州人都很吝嗇，最厲害賺錢，因為甚麼都不愛最愛錢。”

“ 。。。”

福州人底人一等

因為在別人眼裡我們都很吝嗇

還有更扯的

福州人被藐視了還不夠

自己還要藐視自己人

聽爸爸說

福州還分 11 種不同的福州籍貫

有古田，明清，屏南。。。

古田比較高級，因為算是老大，最老最多最大

爸爸也說其實在福州籍貫里，屏南是比較不討喜，沒有甚麼地位的

沒錯

我那麼巧就是屏南福州人

再加上我是福州 ABC，從小沒有人跟我們講福州話

所以在別人眼裡我不是真正的福州人

因為不會講福州話

又是底人一等

現在來探討外表

矮

是自小免不了被人嘲笑的一點

皮膚黝黑

你這個拉子！

在傳統華人觀念里，女生皮膚黑是死穴

現在還比較開放了，至少比較摩登的想法，有人覺得健康膚色也不錯

以前中學最黑的時候，這種想法還沒有盛行

常常被身邊的人指指點點

曾經有一次去 pharmacy 被人家介紹美白產品（家常便飯）

我說，“ 我想要黑皮膚耶。”

店員用真的非常非常不了解加上你是瘋子的眼神

“ 為甚麼？？？？？？”

更讓我覺得好笑的事是

我其實一直想辦法去曬黑

偶爾有變黑一點我就很得意告訴朋友，“ 我黑了！”

得到的回應常常是

安慰的語氣，“ 你不会黑啦。。。。”

黑＝醜

我黑＝我醜

一到 KL 一直被人家講肥

“ 你怎麼變醬去？？？”

還用很同情的眼神看著我

女人群中男人眼裡

我不是斯文的

我不是優雅的

漂亮也稱不上

沒有好身材

沒有撩人的大腿

不太會穿衣服

不夠女人味

我跟男生非常好

你知道為甚麼嗎

因為他們都把我當男生。。。

從小就對自己外表感到自卑

因為外面的人不斷告訴小小的我

我很醜姐姐是美的

我很肥姐姐很瘦

我是牙套妹（那年代牙套還不算流行，很多人不解，以為牙套是一種裝飾品）

我很黑很像女傭（也真的有客人到我們家以為我是傭人）

看過去一副不會作家務也不會讀書的樣子

我沒有誇張

真的有大人直接這樣跟我講

本小姐我的家境不錯

不算很有錢，還是要省省用的那種

但至少不愁吃不愁穿

家境沒有我好的人就說

你們這些有錢人

只會靠父母

沒有經歷生活的辛酸

沒有出息

家境比我好的人。。。

雖然沒有說我甚麼

但是一起去血拼就會感受到

沒有受過高等教育的長輩

非常瞧不起我這種

只會花父母錢出國買文聘

到了社會甚麼都不會的

大學生

受過高等教育的社會人士

覺得我是個甚麼都不懂

沒有經驗的

大學生

年齡比我大一些的人

一直批評這些年輕一代的

沒有責任感沒有童年生活過得太好

經不起考驗

年齡比我小一些的人

“ 你這個老人。”

現在來講一下宗教

基督教分很多宗派

有神召會，長老會，衛理公會，天主教，浸信會，獨立教會很多很多等等

別的我不懂

但我到了 KL

一直被別的宗派講衛理公會幹嗎幹嗎

不斷的比較不斷的侮辱不斷的刁難

讓我非常沮喪

為了不起不必要的爭執

只有以沈默回應

人比人

氣死人

怎麼比

都是底人一等

其實念到這裡

你們不用安慰我

因為以上所寫的都是別人說的

並不代表我真的這樣看不起自己

也不用爭執

因為這些都是我個人親身經驗

跟你們分享分享下

低等人類累了

到此一筆

臨走前呼籲各位好心人

請不要大眾化一些事情

因為對那些被大眾化的人

有些不公平

有些的傷害

會躲在角落默默哭泣的那種

在這個人生旅途中

我們一起學習吧

雖然我，mely，是個樣樣都不及別人的小女孩

但是我要感謝我親愛的天父

不管我多爛

祂是愛我的

祂也接納我

謝謝你耶穌

頑固？有想法？

2011-09-21T02:03:00.003+10:00

有一件事情我很好奇。

最近一直聽到某人說，那些頑固的老人家或者比較長輩的就是死古板一個。不願意聽取別人的意見，也不願意改變，只覺得自己甚麼都是對的，一直拿自己以往的經驗用在現代裡面。總之，就是投訴年長的人很不願意配合時代的轉變改變想法。

可是這人非常有自己的立場，碰到甚麼事他覺得這樣一定就是這樣，沒有辦法改變他的想法。

這樣持守自己想法的人。。。

代表他很有自己的想法？

還是他也是一個老頑固，不管別人說甚麼都聽不進去，自己覺得的一定是對的？

那麼那些可以被改變想法的人。。。

代表他很不頑固，願意聽別人的？

還是這種人沒有自己的定位，沒有自己的立場？

講來講去，大家都是頑固人，一直覺得自己對，別人錯。不要彼此批評啦。

忽然間。。。

2011-09-13T00:38:00.001+10:00

平時愛自己一個人的我。。。

怎麼忽然寂寞了起來？

感到心靈空虛。。。

誰來陪在我身邊認真地聽我訴苦？

品格決定成敗

2011-08-21T14:57:00.005+10:00

今天聽牧師講道一半，爹地忽然递給我一張紙。。。

品格決定成敗

安穩 Security ／焦慮 Anxiety

將生命建造在不會毀壞流失的根基上。

誠懇 Sincerity ／虛偽 Hypocrisy

以光明磊落的動機努力做正確的事。

誠實 Truthfulness ／期滿 Deception

準確地說明事情原委以贏得未來的信任。

創意 Creativity ／得過且過 Underachievement

從新的角度面對需求，任務或構想。

服從 Obedience ／任性 Willfulness

迅速，樂意地執行領導的意願與指示。

感恩 Gratefulness ／忘恩 Unthankfulness

以言行讓人知道他曾如何使自己生命受益。

公正 Justice ／腐敗 Corruption

視維護純正真實的事為己任。

果斷 Decisiveness ／拖延 Procrastination

認清關鍵所在做成困難決定。

好客 Hospitality ／孤僻 Loneliness

樂意分享食物，住處或友情，使人受益。

機警 Alertness ／漫不經心 Carelessness

留意周圍發生的事以便正確回應。

堅忍 Endurance ／氣餒 Discouragement

以內在意志承受壓力，以便不遺餘力。

節儉 Thriftiness ／奢侈 Extravagance

不容自己或他人有不必要的花費。

節制 Self－control ／放縱 Self－Indulgence

摒棄私慾，正直行事。

謹慎 Discretion ／幼稚 Simplemindedness

辨認並避免後果不佳的言語，行為和態度。

盡責 Responsibility ／無法信賴 Unreliability

明白別人的期望並切實做到。

井然有序 Orderliness ／雜亂 Confusion

隨時整頓自己與環境，追求更高成效。

敬重 Honor ／輕慢 Disrespect

因領導所代表的更高權柄而尊重他。

決心 Determination ／優柔寡斷 Faintheartedness

決意不計阻力在時限內完成任務。

慷慨 Generosity ／吝嗇 Stinginess

用心管理自己的資源，而能大方地與需要者分享。

可靠 Dependability ／反復無常 Inconsistency

即或需付出額外的代價，也要言出必行。

寬容 Tolerance ／偏見 Prejudice

認識到各人有不同層次的品格表現。

美德 Virtue ／污穢 Impurity

不斷正確行事，在生活中展露高尚品德。

敏銳 Sensitivity ／遲鈍 Callousness

運用感官體察旁人真正的態度與情感。

明辨 Discernment ／短視 Shortsightedness

能了解事情發生的根本原因。

耐心 Patience ／浮躁 Restlessness

接受困境，不設下挪開困境的時限。

能屈能伸 Flexibility ／抵觸 Resistance

願意照領導者的指示改變自己的計畫或想法。

謙遜 Humility ／驕傲 Pride

將個人成就歸功於幫助過自己的人。

勤奮 Diligence ／懶惰 Slothfulness

全力以赴完成人所交代的任務。

饒恕 Forgiveness ／排斥 Rejection

對得罪我的人不記仇，不懷恨。

熱誠 Enthusiasm ／冷漠 Apathy

竭盡全力展現樂業的態度。

善勸 Persuasiveness ／好辯 Contentiousness

助人超越心理障碍，以便指引重要真理。

善用資源 Resourcefulness ／浪費 Wastefulness

善用他人忽略或丟棄的物品。

慎重 Cautiousness ／倉促 Rashness

知道適時而動的重要性。

守時 Punctuality ／遲延 Tardiness

在正確的時間做正確的事，表明自己重視他人。

隨時待命 Availability ／自我中心 Self－centeredness

尊重服務對象的意願過於自己的計畫。

同情 Compassion ／冷淡 Indifference

為醫治別人的創傷願付上必要代價。

溫和 Gentleness ／嚴酷 Harshness

為人著想並表現岀對他的關心。

溫柔 Meekness ／易怒 Anger

甘心放下自己的權益與期望樂意服務。

喜樂 Joyfulness ／自憐 Self-Pity

即使面對不稱心的事仍保持好的態度。

信心 Faith ／妄想 Presumption

即使不能預先看見，仍確信好品格帶來好結果。

勇敢 Boldness ／膽怯 Fearfulness

自信言行是誠實的，正確的，公正的。

真愛 Benevolence ／自私 Selfishness

滿足他人基本需要，不求回報。

知足 Contentment ／貪婪 Covetousness

認識到真幸福不受物質左右。

智慧 Wisdom ／愚蠢 Foolishness

超越現況，觀察並回應人生處境。

忠誠 Loyalty ／不忠 Unfaithfulness

在艱難時刻仍堅守向服務對象的承諾。

周全 Thoughtfulness ／疏漏 Incompleteness

知道稍有疏忽必將有損工作或話語的成效。

主動 Initiative ／懈怠 Idleness

看到事情不待別人開口就著手去做。

專注 Attentiveness ／分心 Distraction

以全神貫注來表示對人對事的尊重。

尊重 Deference ／魯莽 Rudeness

約束個人自由以免違逆服務對象的意願。

希望對大家有幫助！

The Atrocity of Atheism

2011-08-10T13:55:00.005+10:00

THE ATROCITY OF ATHEISM

It's a fate worse than death.

By Gary Bates,

CEO, CMI-Worldwide

This month's Creation Extra is rather sobering, yet encouraging. It should serve as a wakeup call to the very real need to get the truth out about biblical creation as far and as wide as we all can.

Some time ago, Justin S., a former atheist, shared his heart with us. At a time when so many Christians are failing to recognize where the rubber really hits the road when it comes to confronting a secular worldview, this young man really 'nails it'. Here are some excerpts of what he wrote (bold emphases ours):

Dear CMI, I cannot express my gratitude in words. I became a Christian three years ago after struggling with thoughts of suicide due to my atheistic beliefs.

Your ministry truly saved my life.

I was raised in a secular home, and surrounded by atheistic propaganda from an early age... from school or the media. Unsurprisingly, I became an atheist at the age of 12. As the years passed and I truly tried to understand the world around me, I discovered a horrifying truth that had been hidden from me, hidden from everyone.

This is the reason I am writing this letter, as even in your excellent articles on atheism, you do not truly reveal the extent to which the atheists deceive everyone, even themselves. Atheists often say that they can truly live a happy, fulfilling life. Yet this is a lie, a deception which damns millions of souls to darkness... Simply put, atheism destroys the possibility of personal identity, choice, and objective and subjective meaning.

Atheism inescapably leads to naturalism, and from naturalism follows atheism's great skeleton which its followers try to keep hidden; determinism.

Determinism is inescapable if one is a naturalist, as all that exists is material and has come about by purely natural processes. This means then, that the mind of man, our greatest treasure, is reducible to material bound by physical laws; namely, our thoughts, feelings, and actions are reducible to reactions of chemicals in the brain.

Few people realize, then, that this destroys all that makes us human. Namely; if our thoughts, feelings, and actions are simply chemical reactions in the brain... This means then, that whatever we do, we do because we have to. We cannot do anything other than what we do, it simply isn't possible. All actions are the results of prior actions in an unbreakable chain. We are no different than a cog in a watch or a falling domino.

There is no difference between the embrace of a loving husband and the violence of a vicious rapist; the actions of a doctor trying to save a life and the mass murderer who kills at whim; the actions of our greatest leaders and the inaction of a lazy sluggard. Both are totally the same in atheism.

Objective meaning is non-existent, and subjective meaning is incoherent! Would we say the action of a robot picking up a glass bottle has any meaning, value, or significance? Of course not! It's simply doing what it has to! It can do nothing else! In what sense can an atheist say that he as a person truly exist? The material which composes our body is recycled every seven years, and our consciousness seems to cease every time we go to bed. So in what sense is the mass of matter that wakes up in the morning the same person as the one who went to bed the night before?

As you can see, atheism is utterly horrific! Sadly, most atheists are unaware of these things! I believe if they truly understood the consequences of what they believed, they would reconsider their position.

I know I did, God bless.

Many think that atheism is just a non-belief in a deity. But this well-written letter aptly describes its true meaning. As atheist Cornell biology professor William Provine comfirmed, evolution means: "There is no ultimate foundation for ethics, no ultimate meaning to life, and no free will for humans, either." We can see its fruit every day when we read or look at the daily news and see how godless people act on their belief that there is no tomorrow because there is no Creator. Justin was brought up on a diet of evolution and without an alternative viewpoint he was left without hope.

In God's providence, all it took was for him to be exposed to information that countered the falsehoods that he'd been taught under the guise of science. It doesn't have to be this way. CMI can do so much more with your help. With your much-needed support, you can help to keep the information machine churning. Even a small amount per month really does help.

Thanks for considering this.

www.creation.com

So this is what I've concluded so far:

Atheism = No God

No God = No Judgement

No Judgement = We can do whatever we like!

We can do whatever we like! = Sinning and doing things without having to worry about the consequences

Because

There is No Judgement!

If there is No God, then,

Why should we live a moral life

have good behavior

deal with the stress and shit of this World?

We can just play all we want

enjoy and satisfy all our physical and mental needs

and do whatever we want

be it good or bad

Because

if things don't go our way

or if we've done something so bad

the worse that could happen is death

If there is No God

then dying will just be like disappearing *poof*

So there is really no point to live

No purpose in living

Everyone can just do whatever they like

Why should we care about other people

And why should we be good

We all die eventually so all the things that happened in this World does not really matter so much

If we think life is hard we can just kill ourselves

Afterall, when humans die that will be THE END.

No God = Atheism

Atheism = Allowing humans to sin all they want, and lead a pointless, meaningless life, eventually killing themselves because they don't see the point in living.

Atheism KILLS!

The below are derived from Daily Bread:

"I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope." (Jeremiah 29:11)

God has a purpose for your life,
So what you have to do
Is follow Him, believing that
He'll keep directing you

Keep your eyes on the Lord and you won't lose sight of life's purpose.

Thank God for loving us and giving us new hope!

那一天當我睡去

2011-06-18T07:50:00.003+10:00

那一天當我睡去

像稚嬰依戀慈母的胸膛

我親愛的家人哪

請不要不要為我哭泣

那一天當我睡去

像落葉悠悠地歸回泥土

我親愛的家人哪

請不要不要為我哭泣

只需覆我以滴露的玫瑰

盛開的百合

像舉行一項慶祝儀式

歡送我進入嶄新的國度

從此揮別這世界的淚水與歎息

我們只是暫時分離

在永世裡

我們還要再相聚

而思念

思念是我們相約的信號

在午後的黃昏

我們在思念中相聚

那一天當我睡去

像平時那樣安詳地小寐

我親愛的家人哪

請不要不要為我哭泣

因為我真的只是睡去

－米迭香

我不是在搞 emo，談論甚麼死的。華人總是對死亡抱著一種不吉利，禁忌的話題。可是我覺得死亡是每個人必定會經歷的事情，所以最好在生前先有個交代，以致死了後不會後悔沒有留下甚麼安慰的話特別給那些比較在乎我的家人朋友。我也並沒有想要長篇大論，這篇文章是我在教會的中信看到的，覺得還不錯所以 post 在 blog 供大家分享。

是的，我親愛的家人和朋友，如果那一天當我睡去，請過來讀這篇，不要為我太難過。我只不過到了父那裡去，祂會照顧我。當然還有最經典的一句話就是：謝謝你們在我生命中，因為有你們我才能夠撐到今天，生命多了一分色彩和溫暖，我愛你們。

味道

2011-05-08T23:48:00.003+10:00

味道是一個很特別的東西

人常常會忘記這個忘記那個

甚至以前跟你很要好的朋友

幾年不見

一見面名字可能都叫不出來

但是

味道就不同

至少對我而言

我不會忘記味道

還有味道里的回憶

回憶中參雜了各種的情緒

它彷彿把你帶回那個時候

今天買了某個品牌的洗臉霜

幾分鐘前我去洗臉

就在把洗面霜塗在臉上的那一刹那

那個熟悉的味道撲入鼻孔（也許那時用的正是這個牌子）

當年那些即複雜又單純的感覺

很奇妙地

很抽象地

湧入心田

把我整個人給停留在當年的回憶里

我不懂如何用字來完整地描述我的感受

但是相信大家都有過這樣的經歷

我常常都會

真的覺得

回憶是一個很奇妙很珍貴的財產

還有

味道是一個很特別的東西

有沒有一個味道會讓你們想起我呢？

2011-05-02T20:28:00.000+10:00

後天要開拍了
雖然只是小規模的學生作品
但是還是很緊張

My weakness for eyeliner

2011-04-23T10:13:00.004+10:00

I don't exactly know why but I have this thing for guys who use eyeliner or have smoky eyes. Super obsession. Since I was younger. When Naruto first got out, I am in love with Gaara, a character probably not quite liked by as many people because he's sort of like a demon and the bad guy in Naruto.

My dear Gaara. Now I realise it's because of the eyes that I fell in love with him.

Moving on, among so many Taiwanese actors, my love stuck to Aaron Yan 炎亞綸. Other than because he's a natural hottie and cutie, I too realised that his eyes always look like he's got eyeliner on it. It's more obvious in films compare to photos. It's probably his natural eye lashes doing the job, but whichever it is, me likey.

Then this Adam Lambert guy came out of nowhere. I don't have TV in Australia and I don't really update myself with all these upcoming music and films. One day I was at the gym running on the treadmill, I turned on the music video channel and saw him. So he's THE Adam Lambert that everyone's been talking about and listening to! Fell in love with him immediately just because he's so good looking, plus he's a really good singer which is a super bonus.

Next up, Brandon Urie from Panic! at the Disco. Again, thanks to the televisions in gym, I saw this super cool music video (love the colors!) by Panic! at the Disco. How I love Brandon's makeup and outfit, but most of all his demonic crazy-like character.

Lead singer from Green Day. I'm not crazy over him but overall I like his style.

My huge weakness is bad boys and guys who has eyelined eyes. I think it's the demonic feel about them that attracts me. Gosh. This cannot be good. I really should go for guys like Moss, shouldn't I? (i do fancy Moss, just a little)

What we were taught since young

2011-04-20T10:57:00.000+10:00

Dear Parents,

Jasmine was in a relationship with a dirty homeless boy named Aladdin. Snow White lived alone with 7 men. Pinnochio was a liar. Robin Hood was a thief. Tarzan walked around without clothes on. A stranger kissed sleeping beauty and she married him. Cinderella lied and snuck out at night to attend a party. Rapunzel seduced a guy into entering her house by offering him her silky, golden hair.

You can't blame us. We were taught to rebel since a young age.

2011-04-19T22:37:00.001+10:00

人生誰無過？

我幼年時最大的錯誤就是愛上你

但是也要謝謝你

因為你我學會了甚麼是愛

我也經歷了甚麼是心痛

Personality Disorder Test

2011-04-07T00:22:00.002+10:00

I AM VERY ILL! Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Disorder:	Low
Schizoid Disorder:	Low
Schizotypal Disorder:	High
Antisocial Disorder:	Low
Borderline Disorder:	Moderate
Histrionic Disorder:	High
Narcissistic Disorder:	High
Avoidant Disorder:	Very High
Dependent Disorder:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	High
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! -- -- Personality Disorders -- I couldn't use words to tell people how I actually feel and what I'm going through (people would just think I'm weird and that i THINK TOO MUCH, a phrase which I simply dislike because it just shows that the other person doesn't understand what I'm actually going through. Anyway, I'm glad I did this test. Says it all. I am sooo ill. Help?

是好朋友與否

2011-03-21T00:29:00.004+11:00

有時候總覺得就是跟一些朋友無法更深一步地交往

外表上是好朋友但是內心你知道自己並不是很了解對方

雖然稱得上是好朋友

但是心裡卻不是 100％那麼認為

甚至有時候單獨兩個人還會冷場

會表面上的關懷

但不會常常惦記着對方

這到底是為甚麼？

這樣是壞是好？

還是每個人都是醬？

雖然常常與對方說心事

但是就是感覺不到真正心靈上有交流到

難道世上真的有所謂跟自己永遠 ‘click’ 不到的人？

還是對方並沒有付出友誼？

他只是單純想做你的朋友

沒有要你做他的朋友？

朋友雖然我常常自己搞情緒化

不要怕你們的心事會把我弄垮

我是一個忠實的聆聽者

我也很能夠了解人

如果只是我自己單方面一直訴苦

感覺好寂寞

畢竟我一直很想成為你們的好朋友

I'm 22. Starting today.

2011-03-13T08:41:00.003+11:00

IM TURNING 22 ON THIS SPECIAL DAY.

Thank God for everything. =)

Parents.

Siblings.

Religion.

Friends.

Economy.

Studies.

Worship.

Health.

And so much more.

Math Atheist

2011-03-10T14:30:00.003+11:00

I love Calvin & Hobbes, love how the artist always manage to use only 4 squares to bring out a meaningful message, or questions to life, or even a thing that relates to people. This for example:

If you can't see the print clearly, it goes like this:
Calvin: You know, I don't think Maths is a science. I think it's a religion.Hobbes: A religion?Calvin: Yeah. All these equations are like miracles. You take two numbers and when you add them, they magically become one NEW number! No one can say how it happens. You either believe it or you don't.This whole book is full of things that have to be accepted on faith! It's a religion!As a Math atheist, I should be excused from this.Hobbes: And in the public schools no less. Call a lawyer.
I can totally relate to Calvin's feelings. YES IM A MATHS ATHEIST! Lol.

我吐

2011-02-26T17:33:00.006+11:00

比較認識我的朋友們應該知道我一向來都很愛吐。我的家人更不用講了，他們一天沒有聽到我吐的聲音都不習慣。小學的時候，都是老師載我上學，但是我每一次坐她的車都吐到滿間，後來在老師辦公室里我變得很出名。小時候的記憶就是，很常睡醒，我的人是在厠所里，光溜溜，被媽媽又打又罵個半死。原來是因為我睡覺都會吐，吐到床都是。還有，只要是要上台，或者去不熟悉的地方，任何會讓我緊張的事情，都讓我很想吐。漸漸地，吐的情況有好轉。一直到高三那年，每逢朋友駕車載一群的朋友從學校去吃然後去補習，我都會吐。那種在吐的邊沿卻沒有紙袋還是厠所，那種絕望的心情，到現在依然在 haunt 着我。很可怕的一個感覺。。。那時的我真正了解甚麼是絕望。畢業後有所改善，後來就沒有吐的問題了。只是偶爾非常緊張很想嘔，對我來說算正常。

一直到去年下半年。。。不知道甚麼時候開始很怕坐火車，因為一坐就想吐。唉。。。看到這裡你們是不是覺得很煩了。一天到晚都吐吐吐。其實是很辛苦的勒。於是我的狀況越來越嚴重，從火車蔓延到朋友的車，蔓延到緊張的時候蔓延到去不熟悉的地方。是的，我又回到高三那年的噩夢。

作嘔和吐讓我不敢出去，無法出去跟朋友享受吃吃喝喝，每天都對着馬桶吐。真的很悲哀。不懂沒有這個問題的你們會了解嗎？這種心情。。。很折磨。

所以前天我托媽媽帶我去醫院。醫生說要照胃，看看是不是胃不好。他還說如果胃是 okay 的話，可能就是心裡瘴礙引發的。

這幾天，我真的飽嘗 “害怕”。我覺得 “fear” 比較能夠正確表達我的感受。害怕還算很 mild 的一個詞。照胃鏡是多麼地可怕，醫生要把整個胃鏡伸入你的口裡進到胃裡面。你說可怕不可怕。我這個人沒有動過甚麼手術的，怕得一整天都講不出話，吃不下飯。爸爸和姐姐都不在古晉，我們還不敢告訴他們這件事，怕他們擔心。所以這個手術是偷偷去做的。

動手術的那一天到了。整個過程很戲劇化（看太多戲）。到了手術室的門口（就是每次醫生走出來跟家屬說對不起我盡力了的那邊），護士叫我媽在外面等，然後帶我進去。到了裡面要穿手術袍和戴帽。然後護士又帶我到手術台，叫我躺著。躺下去的時候我一直在想會不會就這樣死掉。別人死在手術台之前是不是跟我一樣的心情。幫我注射麻醉藥是一位男護士。他不是華人，可是很勉強地用華語跟我對話。他滴一滴藥進我的嘴叫我吞，接著喉嚨整個就是痲痹的。那真的是一個很奇怪的感覺！口腔裡感覺得到口水，吞下去是有一段是沒有感覺的。非常怪，不是很好的感覺，好像快不能呼吸一樣。接著就開始手術了！在我嘴意想不到的時候，醫生（都不懂他甚麼時候進來，沒有注意到他）把胃鏡整個塞入我的口腔裡。我有一種不能呼吸的感覺，於是人很正常的反應就是掙扎。大概有 3 到 4 個護士把我按住不給我亂動。我多麼想要把嘴裡的儀器拔出來，掙扎了好久，也不能呼吸好久，我想我快要死了。醫生把儀器拿出來，護士推我到一旁叫我睡覺。我覺得好委屈，好痛苦，就流了眼淚。。。後來就是昏昏沈沈。我只記得在我前面有另外一個病人躺在病床上，就這樣。大概過了半個小手護士叫我醒來。我重心不穩（anesthesia 還沒退）走出去，又被拉去做 ultrasound。有一點好玩因為看戲都是孕婦照 ultrasound，而我還沒結婚就有“幸”照了呵呵。

報告出來 ultrasound 的照片，其中一張很詭異。我的 right kidney 出現一個 skull 的 image。這代表甚麼呢？哈哈。酷吧。醫生說，我的胃和其他器官都正常。可是他發現到我的胃比別人來的敏感。這沒有所謂好壞，也不會對健康造成甚麼問題，因為有些人天生就是一些地方比別人敏感。只是，常常感到胃不舒服是我必須接受的事。至於一直吐，很大的可能性是心裡瘴礙，這就要靠我自己了，沒有藥能夠醫治的。

媽媽說花了 RM500 來買一個真相。至少現在知道自己的胃是 okay 的，不必每天疑神疑鬼以為自己要死掉。真的很感恩上帝讓我經歷到這次的手術，不單讓我們鬆了一口氣，還讓我學習到一些東西。。。

在我非常害怕的時候，我真的發現到，靠人無法克服心裡的懼怕，只有靠上帝，相信祂的帶領，向祂訴苦祈求禱告，心裡才能得到真正的平安。畢竟祂是醫治者嘛。我回家讀了一些經文，領悟到我從來沒有了解過的真理，也大概可以了解到一點點當時耶穌害怕的心理，祂真的好勇敢！明知道前頭的苦難祂還是面對了。哇塞。雖然要面對手術還是很怕，不過心裡是有平安的，跟禱告前的懼怕有很大的分別。以下是一些在我害怕時幫助到我的經文：

"In peace I will lie down and sleep, for you alone, O Lord, will keep me safe." Psalm 4:8

"But when I am afraid, I will put my trust in you." Psalm 56:3

"The Lord is my rock, my fortress, and my savior; my God is my rock, in whom I found protection." Psalm 18:2

"I cry aloud to the Lord... When my spirit grows faint within me, it is You who know my way... I am in desperate need." Psalm 142:1, 3, 6

Gastroscopy

2011-02-26T01:21:00.001+11:00

Gastroscopy - examination of the gullet and stomach

Reviewed by Dr Alan Ogilvie, gastroenterologist

What is gastroscopy?

Gastroscopy is an examination of the inside of the gullet, stomach and duodenum. It is performed by using a thin, flexible fibre-optic instrument that is passed through the mouth and allows the doctor to see whether there is any damage to the lining of the oesophagus (gullet) or stomach, and whether there are any ulcers in the stomach or duodenum.

The GP will decide when drug treatment alone is sufficient or whether an investigation by gastroscopy at the local hospital is necessary.

The procedure is painless and is usually done under a light sedative as a day-case patient in a specialised endoscopy unit.

Occasionally, after a discussion with the endoscopist, the procedure will be performed without sedation. When sedation is used, the patient will not be able to drive or operate machinery for the rest of the day.

Anyone suffering from stomach problems should consult a doctor who will, in most cases, treat the symptoms without a major examination.

How is a gastroscopy performed?

After explaining the procedure, the endoscopist will spray the back of the throat with a local anaesthetic. This is similar to the anaesthetic used by dentists. It numbs the throat and may make it difficult to swallow. When sedation is used, it is not a full anaesthetic and the patient will still be conscious and aware. A nurse will lie the patient on their left side and the endoscopist will then gently place the end of the instrument into the mouth and ask the patient to swallow it, which feels like swallowing a large piece of food.

The endoscopist may need to put some air into the stomach to perform the examination effectively and this can cause discomfort or even a need to belch. This is perfectly normal.

The endoscopist will closely examine the lining of the gullet, stomach and duodenum to identify the cause of the symptoms. It will take about 10 to 15 minutes.

Why is gastroscopy useful?

The doctor can study the mucous membrane of the stomach from the top to the bottom, and see irritation, wounds, or tumours. Gastroscopy is effective, and has now replaced the use of X-rays in many cases. It helps the doctor see any abnormalities in the gullet, the stomach and the duodenum. It is precise and safe.
Through the gastroscope, the doctor can take samples or photographs of the mucous membrane. The most modern gastroscopes can also show the areas in the stomach on a TV screen, so that the mucous membrane can be studied thoroughly. This can be recorded on a videotape, and used for later comparison.

Patients are often given a gastroscopic examination because of their indigestion symptoms, which can usually be treated with tablets.

Occasionally, the cause of indigestion is an ulcer and it is now known that many ulcers are due to bacterial infection in the stomach.

A biopsy (a small piece of the lining of the stomach) may be removed during an endoscopy and examined under the microscope in the laboratory to pinpoint an infection.

A very small number of patients with indigestion will turn out to have cancer and, again, the diagnosis can be made accurately by biopsy. Further investigation can then be planned to ensure the most effective treatment.

Can gastroscopy be used to examine other parts of the body?

On the way down towards the stomach, gastroscopy can also be used to examine the mucous membrane of the gullet - there are several diseases with symptoms that are easily mistaken for diseases in the stomach. If this examination is performed independently it is called oesophagoscopy, after oesophagus, the medical name for the gullet.

How far can a gastroscope see?

A gastroscope can only examine the lining of the oesophagus (gullet) stomach and duodenum. It will detect conditions in those organs that are causing symptoms but will not, for example, detect gallstones or pancreatic disease.

Are there other uses for gastroscopy?

An increasing use for gastroscopy is to obtain biopsies from the top of the small bowel, mainly to rule out a condition called coeliac disease. This is usually arranged at a hospital clinic but in some areas the test may be available to local doctors.

Why doesn't my doctor just send me for an X-ray?

This is a good point. Barium meals were used for many years for the diagnosis of indigestion symptoms. However, the small disadvantages of gastroscopy - special units, day-case admission and the need for sedation - are far outweighed by the increased accuracy of diagnosis and the ability to take biopsies at gastroscopy. As a result relatively few barium meals are performed nowadays.

Is gastroscopy safe?

All procedures carry some risk but outpatient diagnostic gastroscopy is very safe. Minor complications are uncommon and major complications are very rare.

Based on a text by Dr Erik Fangel Poulsen, specialist

《忐忑》

2011-02-12T20:44:00.004+11:00

I am so excited to share this amazing song to all of you out there! If you do not understand Mandarin it's okay, just ignore the lyrics. For your information, the lyrics do not make sense even if you do understand the words.

The original singer 龚琳娜.

Amazing not?!

If you wish to memorize the song click here to view the full lyrics.

Wish to sing like her? Follow this video!

神曲《忐忑》易唱版歌詞：

啊~哦啊~哦诶啊鸡低啊鸡动啊鸡打了地个洞啊鸡低啊鸡打了地个洞
啊~哦啊~哦诶啊鸡低啊鸡动啊鸡打个地个洞啊鸡低啊鸡打了地个洞
啊~啊~ 阿姨压抑哟阿姨压抑哟
啊擦几个蛋这个蛋这个蛋这个蛋个鸡个蛋这个蛋找个洞蛋几个蛋这个蛋这个蛋这个蛋个鸡个蛋这个蛋找个洞阿姨压抑哦
啊~哦啊~哦诶啊鸡低啊鸡动啊鸡打个地个洞啊鸡地啊鸡打个洞
啊~哦啊~哦诶啊鸡低啊鸡动啊鸡打个地个洞啊鸡低啊鸡打个洞
啊~啊~ 阿姨压抑哟阿姨压抑哟
啊擦几个蛋这个蛋这个蛋这个蛋个鸡个蛋这个蛋找个洞蛋几个蛋这个蛋这个蛋这个蛋个鸡个蛋这个蛋找个洞阿姨压抑哟
阿姨压抑阿姨压抑阿姨压抑阿姨啊擦几个蛋这个蛋这个蛋这个蛋个鸡个蛋这个蛋找个洞蛋几个蛋这个蛋这个蛋这个蛋个鸡个蛋这个蛋找个洞阿姨压抑哟
大衣泳衣大姨脱衣大衣泳衣大姨脱衣大姨二用大衣泳衣大姨脱衣大衣泳衣大姨脱衣大衣泳衣大姨快来咯大衣用力大姨脱类（后面为鸟语，可理解为肠胃运动）^ 大姨大一捅

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA BEST SONG OF THE YEAR! Good music, fantabulous facial expression, strong vocal, so much emotions!

More info on《忐忑》

《忐忑》[网络神曲]-简介

《忐忑》出自龚琳娜的丈夫，德国作曲家老锣之手，因为长年研究中国传统民乐，老锣甚至比真正的中国音乐人还要拿手。《忐忑》在网上被播放了不下10万次，是网友口中的第一网络"神曲"。虽然它的歌词只有"啊，哦，唉，呀......"，但却因演唱者龚琳娜一收一缩的嘴型、滴溜溜转的眼神，被网友们形容为"学一万遍都学不会"。

《忐忑》[网络神曲]-歌曲说明

以笙、笛、提琴、扬琴等乐器伴奏，运用戏曲锣鼓经作为唱词，融合老旦、老生、黑头、花旦等多种音色，在极其快速的节奏中变化无穷。

《忐忑》[网络神曲]-歌词

这首《忐忑》，首先征服网友的是歌词，因为龚琳娜口中唱出来的只有"嗯，啊，唉，哟......"和一些听不清听不懂的"哪个嘀哪个咚"的句子。歌词不明白，却没难倒网友们的智慧。有网友填词："带个刀，割不断，用牙咬！"也有网友说唱的是"阿姨压抑带个刀"，还有人说唱的是"逮来逮去逮去逮来，不知道最后逮没逮着谁"。

《忐忑》[网络神曲]-动作

除了歌词，龚琳娜和乐队们的演奏也被网友们形容为"很给力"。龚琳娜唱歌的时候，眼睛一会瞪得圆溜溜，一会又眯成一条线，还不时用力甩头、轻松地扭腰。网友还发现，另外一个亮点就是龚琳娜身后的两位配角。吹笙的大叔一直做陶醉状地闭着眼，随着节奏摆动头，眉毛也跟着上下移动。而另外一位吹笛子的大叔则跟随节奏前倾后仰，有时候还把脖子伸得老长。"这样的组合，简直太无敌了。""我真是越看越爱啊！"网友们不停感叹。

《忐忑》[网络神曲]-歌手资料

龚琳娜出生于贵州贵阳，5岁登台演唱，7岁开始在国内巡演，12岁出访法国时，她所演唱的苗族飞歌、侗族大歌。1999年，龚琳娜以文化部"民歌状元"称号从中国音乐学院毕业。她曾在为观众所熟悉的《血色浪漫》里，演唱多首民歌插曲。

《忐忑》[网络神曲]-连线作者

《忐忑》写了多久？

老锣：两三个星期。不过同时，我还写了其他几首作品，风格是不同的。

这首曲子到底是什么意思呢？

老锣：其实写的时候没有去考虑，我只是想要突破传统的概念，要不同于以往的民乐。我想给人听着，有一种灵活的感受。

为什么没有词呢？

老锣：一开始就没有歌词，就是个单纯的曲子，它是一个不需要歌词，靠琳娜的表情、动作去传递意义的曲子。

你知道它在中国很红吗？你意外吗？

老锣：我知道，琳娜告诉我了。有点想不到，因为那是几年前写的了，而且我写的还有比这更好的，我还拿中国的古诗词写歌，我希望大家有机会听到其他的作品。

很多中国的网友给它"翻译"了歌词，你会觉得不合适吗？

老锣：（笑）不会，我看了，我想那只是音色的问题。（你是指谐音？）对，只是相似的音吧，也没有内容，很有意思，没有什么不好。

2011-01-21T22:35:00.003+11:00

Here I am, committing the same mistake over and over again. I should have known, from so many past experiences. Seriously hate disappointment. Seriously hate things not going the way I plan. I guess that's one of the negative things that comes with good organizing skills. You plan, you follow the plan, you stick to it no matter what, you succeed, you're happy. And the next day you plan again. This kind of lifestyle works perfectly fine for me when I live all alone in Melbourne. When no one else lives with you, when you don't have to take care of other people, when not many friends come back from overseas or visit you from their hometown and you have to tour them around. When there are not much sudden change of plans. And once you're used to that kind of lifestyle, when things don't go as you planned, it irritates you twice as much as it does to normal people.

No more excitement and hopes and too much planning next time.

This is a mistake.

I seriously seriously seriously dislike disappointment.

Next time I'll just go with the flow. No planning. No nothing. Care-free. Happy.

Rearview Mirror Reflections

2011-01-02T18:29:00.002+11:00

Rearview Mirror Reflections

by Joe Stowell

Read: Psalm 111

I've always thought that you can see the hand of God best in the rearview mirror. Looking back, it's easier to understand why He placed us in the home that He did; why He brought certain people and circumstances into and out of our lives; why He permitted difficulties and pain; why He took us to different places and put us in various jobs and careers.

In my own life, I get a lot of clarity (though not perfect clarity - that's heaven's joy!) about the wise and loving ways of God as I reflect on the ways He has managed my journey by "the works of [His] hands" (Psalm 92:4). With the psalmist, it makes me glad and strikes a note of joy in my heart to see how often God has assisted, directed and managed the outcomes so faithfully (Psalm 111).

Looking ahead, though, is not always so clear. Have you ever had that lost feeling when the road ahead seems twisted, foggy, and scary? Before you move into next year, stop and look in the rearview mirror of the year gone by, and joyfully realize that God meant it when He said," I will never leave you nor forsake you." So we may boldly say: 'The Lord is my helper; I will not fear' " (Hebrews 13: 5- 6).

With the promise of God's presence and help in mind, you can move ahead into 2011 with utmost confidence.

Shall not He who led me safely

Through the footsteps of this day

Lead with equal understanding

All along my future way?

- Adams

Food for Thought: God's guidance in the past gives courage for the future.

Have a very happy new year everyone! =D

No bloggie

2010-12-30T13:48:00.003+11:00

If it's been a while since I blogged, it's either I'm:

1. Seriously busy.

2. In an area with no internet connection.

3. Having the time of my life.

The answer is 3. =D

PS: the blogger template is bugging me. Well not really the template, but, I tried enlarging and coloring my fonts, but they just wont turn up like how it's supposed to look on my blogspot. HELP.

Tonight is THE night.

2010-12-24T15:18:00.005+11:00

O Holy Night!

O Holy Night! The stars are brightly shining,
It is the night of the dear Saviour's birth.
Long lay the world in sin and error pining.
Till He appeared and the Spirit felt its worth.
A thrill of hope the weary world rejoices,
For yonder breaks a new and glorious morn.
Fall on your knees! Oh, hear the angel voices!
O night divine, the night when Christ was born;
O night, O Holy Night , O night divine!
O night, O Holy Night , O night divine!

Led by the light of faith serenely beaming,
With glowing hearts by His cradle we stand.
O'er the world a star is sweetly gleaming,
Now come the wisemen from out of the Orient land.
The King of kings lay thus lowly manger;
In all our trials born to be our friends.
He knows our need, our weakness is no stranger,
Behold your King! Before him lowly bend!
Behold your King! Before him lowly bend!

Truly He taught us to love one another,
His law is love and His gospel is peace.
Chains he shall break, for the slave is our brother.
And in his name all oppression shall cease.
Sweet hymns of joy in grateful chorus raise we,
With all our hearts we praise His holy name.
Christ is the Lord! Then ever, ever praise we,
His power and glory ever more proclaim!
His power and glory ever more proclaim!

SPLENDID SONG! REALLY SINGS OUT THE MAGNIFICENCE OF OUR LORD! One of my fav Christmas songs. =) Tonight is the holy night. =DDDD

*Jingle jingle jingle bells* "LORD JESUS CHRIST IS BORN!" (Quote from Ultimate Christmas "Bells are rung to announce the birth of Jesus Christ")

Wishing you all a Merry Christmas!!!

(do you know what the traditional colors of Christmas represent? Green represents eternal life, and red represents the blood that Jesus shed for us when he was crucified.)

*skips away*

Winterish Summer?

2010-12-21T00:44:00.005+11:00

This is all very weird.

Melbourne IS weird.

Melbourne weather IS weird.

And everyone knows that.

It's a general knowledge.

It's a fact.

There is a saying that goes," If you don't like Melbourne's weather, wait for another 15 minutes."

It's supposed to be Summer now. The first Summer I had in Melbourne was one of the hottest Summers in who-knows-how-many decades. Highest record 46.7 freaking Celcius degrees.

The second Summer in Melbourne was also as hot as... you name it. 45 Celcius degrees perhaps? Remember the bush fire that killed so many Melburnians? Even cars cannot outrun the fire. Imagine that.

Fearful for my life in this coming Summer, I made all the preparations I could. I bought the most Summerish clothes I can get. All the jackets and hoodies and warm clothes are being pushed into the far end of my closet and store room. Ice creams are stashed in the freezer. Bought a magical frosty mug that can apparently magically transformed your drink into a frosty drink (uh huh, it's cool). Got lotions and sunscreens and heat-proof shampoo. Obviously I was ready for the heat and ready to get some tan.

This year's Summer.

It is now... wait, lemme check... 11 Celcius degrees (Melbourne's Winter standard temperature).

Drats.

HANDS!

2010-12-10T12:00:00.002+11:00

A basketball in my hands is worth about $19.
A basketball in Michael Jordan's hands is worth about $33 million.
It depends whose hands it's in.

A baseball in my hands is worth about $6.
A baseball in Roger Clemens' hands is worth $475 million.
It depends on whose hands it's in.

A tennis racket is useless in my hands.
A tennis racket in Andre Agassi's hands is worth millions.
It depends whose hands it's in.

A rod in my hands will keep away an angry dog.
A rod in Moses' hands will part the mighty sea.
It depends whose hands it's in.

A slingshot in my hands is a kid's toy.
A slingshot in David's hand is a mighty weapon.
It depends whose hands it's in.

Two fish and 5 loaves of bread in my hands is a couple of fish sandwiches.
Two fish and 5 loaves of bread in Jesus' hands will feed thousands.
It depends whose hands it's in.

Nails in my hands might produce a birdhouse.
Nails in Jesus Christ's hands will
Produce salvation for the entire world.
It depends whose hands it's in.

As you see now, it depends whose hands it's in.
So put your concerns, your worries, your fears, your hopes, your dreams, your families and your relationships in God's hands because...
It depends whose hands it's in.

This message is now in YOUR hands.
What will YOU do with it?

It Depends on WHOSE Hands it's in!

Gym... or food...

2010-11-17T15:44:00.004+11:00

I never would have expected this to happen.

Mely goes to gym! Mely works out!

Goodness. When I was younger, "going to the gym" and "working out" sounds like it's for buffed up grown up males which has absolutely nothing to do with me. But now I'm actually involved in a fitness club! I could rant on forever about why I wanted to join and what motivated me but today's focus is not on the gym. Today's focus is...

One glance of what I had today after gym.

The thing about gym for me is, everytime before going, I have all these doubts and this stupid inner voice keeps telling me: "You are too tired to go. You look stupid and fat. People will be staring at you weirdly. You are not fit to be in a fitness club. People think you're weird. Don't go. You can go in the afternoon (which I will end up not going). You can go again tomorrow, rest at home today. Go back to your dreams. " But after much struggle and an hour of working out, I feel greeeeaaaaat!

Oh wait, back to the focus of the day.

Ahem.

Cheesy Meatloaf.

Seasoned with salt and pepper, added with Rosemary herbs, chopped red onions and cheese. Baked and topped with mozarella cheese, and sides with mini tomato trusses. And of course, parsley sprinkles on top.

Smoked Salmon Salad.

Mixed salad leaves with sliced avocado, red onion, pieces of smoked salmon with caesar salad dressing.

Mango Sago Dessert.

Cubed mango plus mini sago, swimming in cinnamon-flavored sugar syrup and a generous serving of evaporated milk. Tip: Mango doesn't go too well with cinnamon. They don't clash but it's just not the perfect combination.

Before you say so fattening...

Hmmm I guess it does look fattening. BUT!!!! *index finger wagging* if have them in little portions it isn't fattening okay. And I deserve a mango sago dessert on a hot day like today.

Alpacaaaaaa

2010-11-15T13:48:00.004+11:00

Have you seen anything this cute before?

It's an Alpaca! I didn't know of their existence until I visited Tesselaar Tulip Farm. What are Alpacas doing in a tulip farm I have no idea.

It looks like an Ilama but it's not. Actually if you google search for Ilamas you will know how different it is from Alpacas. Alpacas are way cuter.

Check out an Alpaca after its wool is shaved, works just like a sheep!

Oh my dear.

One word to describe an Alpaca: Comical.

Super stubby short legs + super long neck, and the best part of an Alpaca is its fringe! Very emo-ish cut, but at the same time cute and delightful.

There are a few types of different Alpacas but I reckon this is the cutest one. If you want to know more about them, Google is available hehe.

Oh my dear. The fringe. Is just awesome.

Halloween shiz

2010-11-03T16:49:00.004+11:00

So here are some of the stuffs we baked for Halloween.

I know, touchy subject for some Christians.

Some think that we shouldn't celebrate Halloween at all.

On the other hand, some think that it's harmless.

I'm not going to go into a debate on that. I'm never good at debating.

For me, it's just a time where I can try out Halloween-themed baking and costumes. Testing my crazy makeup skills.

It's like non-Christians celebrating Christmas.

Anyway.

My try at being a maniac killer.

Scars and all.

Don't worry it's still the cute old Mely underneath that makeup.

For more photos, search for je Art on Facebook.

A Worry List

2010-11-03T16:35:00.002+11:00

A Worry List

by Anne Cetas

Read: Matthew 6:25 - 34

I was worrying about a few things as I sat in my car under a shade tree at lunchtime. Then a robin, with a fat worm dangling from its mouth, landed near my door and looked up at me. The robin was a vivid reminder to me of Jesus' words in Matthew 6: 25 - 26, "Do not worry about your life... Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?"

Years ago, in an article in the Denver Seminary magazine Focal Point, Paul Borden gave some helpful suggestions for worriers:

Start a worry list. Write down what you're worried about. The bills. Your job. Your children or grandchildren. Your health. Your future.

Turn you worry list into a prayer list. Ask the Lord to work in those situations you're concerned about. Pray specifically for your needs and depend on Him.

Turn your prayer list into an action list. If you have any insight that there's something you can do about your cares, do it. As we turn our worries into prayer and action, Borden says, "Paralyzing anxiety can be replaced by concern for the responsibilities of life."

Why not start your list right now?

Don't fret about the future

Or be consumed by cares;

Instead take all your worries

And turn them into prayers

- Sper

Food for Thought: What you have made a matter of prayer should cease to be a matter of care

Common Language

2010-10-28T11:39:00.004+11:00

Common Language

by Dave Branon

Read: Acts 17: 22 - 32

During the high schoolers' spring ministry trip to Jamaica, they visited a home for troubled teens who had run afoul of the law or whose families could not handle them.

This was not a comfortable situation for the kids from either culture. What would they say? How would they connect?

It didn't take long to find out. Minutes after they arrived, a soccer match began as a number of the US students engaged some of the Jamaican teens in spirited competition.

The soccer match was a great ice-breaker as the kids kicked the ball around and got the know each other. After the game, conversations was easier and friendship were established quicker because of a common interest.

In Acts 17, the apostle Paul demonstrated how to break through barriers and establish dialogue. He talked with the Athenians about something of common interest - worship. In a similar way, we can use sports talk with a co-worker or lawn conversation with a neighbor. The possibilities are endless.

To reach out to people who need to hear about God's love, look for common language - and watch the barriers fall.

The Spirit of God can reach my neighbor,

Providing the gift of salvation,

If I am ready to open the way

By starting a good conversation.

- Hess

Food for Thought: God's love can break down barriers.

在草原上奔跑

2010-10-23T16:45:00.003+11:00

在 Mely 快樂的世界里

我盡情地在草原上奔跑

沒有煩惱

沒有憂慮

沒有痛苦

哈哈，“草原上奔跑” 一直是我很嚮往的事情。尤其要在那種無邊無際，只有高草原和天空，也許再加上一些的花朵和雲彩。我覺得很快樂呵呵。不過這只有在夢裡會發生而已。有時太痛苦的時候，會自己畏縮到這個世界裡面。Anyway，健森應該懂我的意思，我們以前一起聽了一首日本歌就有這種草原上奔跑的感覺。

很奇妙的感覺。

Pencil and Eraser

2010-10-21T11:58:00.002+11:00

Pencil: I'm sorry
Eraser: For what? You didn't do anything wrong.
Pencil: I'm sorry cuz you get hurt because of me. Whenever I made a mistake, you're always there to erase it. But as you make my mistakes vanish, you lose a part of yourself. You get smaller and smaller each time.

Eraser: That's true. But I don't really mind. You see, I was made to do this. I was made to help you whenever you do something wrong. Even though one day, I know I'll be gone and you'll replace me with a new one, I'm actually happy with my job. So please, stop worrying. I hate seeing you sad. :)

I found this conversation between the pencil and the eraser very inspirational. Parents are like the eraser whereas their children are the pencil. They're always there for their children, cleaning up their mistakes. Sometimes along the way... they get hurt, and become smaller (older, and eventually pass on).

Though their children will eventually find someone new (spouse), but parents are still happy with what they do for their children, and will always hate seeing their precious ones worrying, or sad.

"All my life, I've been the pencil.. And it pains me to see the eraser that is my parents getting smaller and smaller each day.

For I know that one day, all that I'm left with would be eraser shavings and memories of what I used to have..."

This is to all the parents out there...

*grabbed this article from MacgyverWong Giok Aik on Facebook*

The brevity of life

2010-10-18T14:33:00.002+11:00

Lately there has been a lot of deaths around me and my friends. It's true that we can't control how long we want to live in this world, we can't control when to be born, where to be born, and who our parents should be. To humans, dying young or dying a sudden death may seem like the saddest thing in the world, but sometimes when I think about it, the age doesn't seem to matter. What matters most is, have you had an abundant life before dying. If you have, then dying doesn't seem too bad because all that is changed is you're in heaven with God! How bad can that be? I think the saddest thing about dying is, you have regrets. You did not reconcile with that friend you argued with, you did not tell that special someone you loved him/her, you did not spend enough time with your parents, you did not impact the people around you positively etc.

The Brevity Of Life

by Bill Crowder

Read: Psalm 90

On October 19, 2008, I heard the news that Levi Stubbs, lead singer for Motown's vocal group The Four Tops, had died at age 72. As a boy, I enjoyed the Four Tops, especially Stubbs' emotion-filled, passionate voice. I had never met him or heard the group in concert, yet his passing affected me at an unexpected level.

Behind my sadness, I think, was the reminder that I too am getting older. The death of someone I listened to when I was young reminded me that time isn't marching on - it's running out!

In the only psalm attributed to Moses, he wrote, "The days of our lives are seventy years; and if by reason of strength they are eighty years, yet their boast is only labor and sorrow; for it is soon cut off, and we fly away" (90:10). Those aren't words we want to hear. We want to remain forever young, but Scripture reminds us that the years pass and death will one day arrive.

That leaves us to wrestle with two essential questions: Am I ready to "fly away" at life's end, having trusted Christ as my Savior? And am I using my fleeting days to please the One who loves me eternally?

How are you doing - no matter what your age - with the challenges raised by the brevity of life?

Our vigor is fleeting, our best years are brief,

Our youth passes quickly - time's ever a thief;

But hope yet becomes us - death's sting holds no power;

We have a Redeemer - an unfailing Tower.

- Gustafson

Food for Thought: You can't control the length of your life, but you can control its depth.

True indeed! When I die, I would want people to say," Emily was a very special friend." "Emily changed my life." "Emily showed me that the world is colorful (something like that)" "Emily was a loyal servant to God." Hehe.

PhotoJojo my new love

2010-10-18T01:27:00.004+11:00

Life has been pretty boring lately without any mails or parcels. Heck, I would even feel a teeny bit happy when I received an ANZ bank statement mail. I am THAT desperate. And then this happened.

OMIGOSH OMIGOSH OMIGOSH. Not only it's a parcel, it's a pretty big one! *YUM* For all uni students who's studying overseas, you will know how I feel. When you received something from the postman, especially things in boxes, it's just... exhilarating? Hmm.

*sound of ripping and tearing and hyena laugh*

WOOHOO! My babies~

A PhotoJojo book filled with colorful images and interesting fun photography ideas! With a super nice yellow cover as well. It's a good addition to my book collection. So proud of my mini library now. I've always had a thing for books, but never had the heart to ask mommy to buy for me because they cost a bomb.

24-105mm lens mug! If you saw me updating my status on Facebook about getting a new lens, it's fake, what I actually got was a lens mug. I'm not that rich!

An underwater camera to be used when I visit Goldcoast end of this year. They don't come with instructions, damn.

With compliments from PhotoJojo, a magnetic photo rope holder. It's super cool, you should come to my room to have a look. You just hang it from something, and it drops down vertically. Then you use its super magnets (8 of them altogether) and stick your polaroid photos or any other photos to the rope. And tada! you now have a nice decor to your tasteful room.

After digging everything I ordered from PhotoJojo out of the box, I noticed there was a little black thing in the box. I thought it was some junk or probably some dead lizard or something, when I had a closer look....

Rawwwwwwrrrr! A cute little dino! I so wasn't expecting this. Dinosaurs and rawring are sort of like PhotoJojo's trademark or something. Maybe its inventors and creators just love dinos. I assume they give a miniature dino to all of their buyers.

So cute neh~

Rawrrrrrrr~

2010-10-12T01:15:00.001+11:00

Things aren't supposed to turn out like this.

Comic of the day

2010-10-06T22:55:00.005+11:00

Lol this comic cracks me up.

do not click on the image save it to see the enlarged version

What is Secure?

2010-10-05T18:06:00.003+11:00

What is Secure?

by David McCasland

Read: 1 Timothy 6: 6- 10, 17 - 19

During the worldwide financial crisis of 2008, a widow lost a third of her income when her bank stocks no longer paid dividends after her trusted bank failed. The Wall Street Journal quoted her tearful response as an example of the feelings of many people who were similarly affected:" You just think, 'This can't be happening.' What is secure anymore?"

Tragedy and hard times always jolt our thinking. Our best plans and hopes can be shattered by events beyond our control. We are reminded that there is only one source of true security in a changing world. With new appreciation, we consider Paul's words:" Command those who are rich in this present age not to be haughty, nor to trust in uncertain riches but in the living God, who gives us richly all things to enjoy. Let them do good, that they be rich in good works, ready to give, willing to share, storing up for themselves a good foundation for the time to come, that they may lay hold on eternal life" (1 Timothy 6: 17 - 19)

When our resources diminish, we can grow richer in good works, generosity, and sharing with others. If financial stability returns, we can hold more loosely what we are given, trusting solely in God.

We are secure in Him alone.

Though troubles assail, and dangers affright,

Though friends should all fail, and foes all unite,

Yet one thing secures us, whatever betide:

The Scripture assures us," The Lord will provide."

- Newton

Food for Thought: In uncertain times, our security is in God alone.

How true is that? In our lives, we think we are secure. We think our money in the bank is secure. We think our lives are secure because we have insurance. We think friends and family will never fail us. Truth be told, as the following YouTube music video indicates, the world and everything around us is changing. It's only until we face insecurity will we turn to the never-changing God.

天下萬事都會變

男女老少都在變

天氣在變平安在變

事業在變幸福也在變

每個時代都會變

整個世界都在變

流行在變觀念在變

容貌在變愛情也在變

變得會更壞

還是變得會更好

有誰會知道

有誰事先能預料

有誰能掌握

有誰可倚靠

亙古到永遠耶穌不改變

昔在今在以後永在

耶穌不改變

亙古到永遠耶穌可倚靠

昔在今在以後永在

耶穌可倚靠

Thank God He is always the same and He never changes! We can definitely put our trust in Him because our security is in Him alone.

有一天

2010-10-01T00:08:00.003+10:00

有一天

泥土音乐/盛晓玫

有一天你若真的失去勇气
有一天你若真的想放弃
有一天你若感觉没人爱你
有一天好像走到谷低
那一天你要振作你的心情
那一天你要珍惜你自己
那一天不要忘记有人爱你
那一天不要轻易说放弃
这个世界真有一位上帝
他爱你　他愿意帮助你
茫茫人海　虽然寂寞
他爱能温暖一切冷漠
这个世界真有一位上帝
他的双手渴望紧紧拥抱你
漫漫长夜　陪你走过
他爱你　伴你一生之久

這首歌真的讓我想哭。給很開朗沒煩惱不會胡思亂想的朋友們，也許沒有甚麼太深的感觸，但是，像我這種 emo 的人，從小（好像 7 歲開始）就一直覺得沒人愛，一直沒有安全感，直到現在。雖然家人都愛我，我想我太消極，對愛要求也太高吧。

重點是，有多少個寂寞的夜晚，我們獨自躲在被窩里哭泣。那種覺得全世界沒有人愛你的感覺，讓人心感到絕望和沮喪，甚至不想活了。但是這首歌提醒我們，縱然全世界都不了解我們，縱然全世界沒有人愛我們，我們有一位愛我們的上帝！祂一直都在等我們。等我們轉向祂，等我們尋找祂，祂一直都在那裡等！

真的，我有好東西就要分享給大家，如果我不告訴你們，我就太自私了。現在，我要用我的全心全力向正在讀這個的朋友們說。。。

這個世界真的有一位上帝！祂很愛你！祂的雙手渴望緊緊擁抱你！

你願意嗎？

Kick-Ass stuffs from Photojojo

2010-09-20T18:37:00.003+10:00

All the nice nice people out there~~~~ you can get me these~~~~ onegaiiiiii~~~~~~

Color Lens and Flash Filters

Color Lens and Flash Filters at the Photojojo Store!

Camera USB Drive

Camera USB Drive at the Photojojo Store!

Fuji Instax Wide Format Instant Camera

Fuji Instax 210 Wide Format Instant Camera at the Photojojo Store!

Mini Model Camera

Mini Model Camera with 3 lenses at the Photojojo Store!

The Fisheye Lens

Fisheye Adapter at the Photojojo Store!

Camera Dial Laptop Decal

Camera Dial Laptop Decal at the Photojojo Store!

The Tokyo Dreamer Strap

The Tokyo Dreamer Strap at the Photojojo Store!

Camera Folder

Camera Folder at the Photojojo Store!

Shinjuku Photo Scrap-Kit

The Shinjuku Photo Scrap-Kit at the Photojojo Store!

Wish Bank Frame

Wish Frame Bank at the Photojojo Store!

You-Vision Video Glasses

You-Vison Video Glasses at the Photojojo Store!

Photoshop Fridge Magnets

Photoshop Fridge Magnets at the Photojojo Store!

SUPER DUPER NICE STUFF! Photojojo is officially my favorite site at the moment! I'm turning into a photography geek ahhhh~~~~

The ones that I 'desire' the most right now are:

1. Mini Model Camera

2. Photoshop Fridge Magnets

3. Camera Dial Laptop Decal

4. The Tokyo Dreamer Strap

5. Fish Eye Lens

6. Camera Folder

So, nice nice nice people out there~~~~ although my birthday is over, but Christmas is near~~~ hehe.

Lighting IS IMPORTANT!

2010-09-13T13:35:00.002+10:00

Been a while since my last post...... Hmm... I'm starting to neglect my bloggie. Actually, I have been neglecting it for a while, only returning to it when I feel emotional. But I really should stop writing sad negative stuffs. My blog posts used to contain more photos than words, but now it's the other way 'round. Here's why: I can't carry my huge DSLR around all the time = less random photos. And when I do carry them around = tons of photos. I used Dropshots to store my photos and directly linked the photos on my blog from there, but now it's hard becauseeeee my 50D takes raw photos = huge sizes = a waste of time, quota and space if I throw everything on Dropshots.

Can any Mac user tell me how to rename and resize a batch of photos all at once without too much hassle? I really hate logging into my Windows on Mac (jams the whole system) just to use Microsoft Photo Editor to rename and resize the photos.

Anyway, today I want to compare two photos I have taken a few days ago, to prove how important lighting is.

Photo #1

Nice bright sunshine shining upon the tree, making the white flowers go "tink"! This is when the sun is almost setting.

1 minute later...

Photo #1

After fiddling with my focus, the sun has somehow gone behind the clouds or it was blocked by some buildings.

The camera and editing settings of both photos are the same. I actually added more vibrancy to the second dull photo, compare to the first one. This proves how important lighting and timing is. I have been subscribing to DPS (Digital Photography School, thanks to Melvin) for a few months now and it has taught me so much about photography. It always emphasizes how important the "golden hour" is, the best time to take photos is usually during sunrise and sunset. And you don't have an hour's worth of golden hour, it's usually only a few minutes, so you really have to have the right timing.

Amazing! That few minutes or even seconds can really change the mood of a photo. From dull to vibrant. =D

High-Tech Communication

2010-09-06T18:03:00.002+10:00

The following is from a devotional piece I read a few months back then. I think it's really wonderful how sometimes God communicates with us, be it a message in a Sermon you were listening to, a simple text from a friend, the devotional piece you were reading, Bible scriptures etc. And at times it's not even words or language. It can be God's creation like a little Dandelion, and His creation will remind me of how wonderful our Creator is and how He will never forsake me. He will look after me for as long as I live.

High-Tech Communication

by Joe Stowell

Read: 1 Corinthians 2: 6 - 16

When it comes to communication, our world is becoming increasingly high-tech. The popularity of things like texting, Twitter, and Facebook might cause some to think the Bible is too old-school. The tech-savvy people of our world might feel deterred because there's no sound and no nifty graphics in the Bible. But the truth is, there's more high-tech power in God's Word than in any cutting-edge communication tool our world will ever know.

It's not uncommon for a pastor to be told," When you said that in your message, it was just what I needed." Somehow during the sermon, God spoke to the person's heart with a message tailor-made for him or her. If you've ever read the Bible and sensed God speaking directly to you, you know what I'm talking about. God has hard-wired you with His Spirit, who illumines your mind to understand His Word.

Imagine getting a "text message" directly from the Creator of the universe telling you exactly what you need at exactly the right time. No matter how high-tech this world gets, you'll never experience a more powerful mode of communication!

Rejoice in the reality that "we have received... the Spirit who is from God, that we might know the things that have been freely given to us by God." (1 Corinthians 2:12)

Give me the insight, Lord,

As I hear Your Word today,

So I will truly understand

Your message and Your way.

- Monroe

Food for Thought: The Bible may be old, but its truths are always new.

God... Always Answers Prayer

2010-09-05T00:21:00.003+10:00

God...

Always Answers Prayer

Dr. Robert Schuller

When the idea is not right, God says," No."

No - when the idea is not the best,

No - when the idea is absolutely wrong,

No - when though it may help you, it could create problems for someone else.

When the time is not right, God says," Slow."

What a catastrophe it would be if God answered every prayer at the snap of your fingers. Do you know what would happen? God would become your servant, not your master. Suddenly, God would be working for you instead of you working for God.

Remember: God's delays are not God's denials. God's timing is perfect. Patience is what we need in prayer.

When you are not right, God says," Grow."

The selfish person has to grow in unselfishness.

The cautious person must grow courage.

The timid person must grow in confidence.

The dominating person must grow in sensitivity.

The critical person must grow in tolerance.

The negative person must grow in positive attitudes.

The pleasure-seeking person must grow in compassion for suffering people.

When everything is alright, God says," Go."

Then miracles happen:

A hopeless alcoholic is set free!

A drug addict finds release!

A doubter becomes as a child in his belief.

Diseased tissue responds to treatment, and healing begins.

The door to your dream suddenly swings open and there stands God saying," Go!"

失落啊失落

2010-09-02T22:31:00.003+10:00

有哪一個人不曾因為自己的死黨有了另一半而心裡不自覺有點失落感？

我說的是死黨噢。就是那種不管甚麼事都找他的好朋友，無所不聊，做甚麼事去哪裡都是成天黏死在一起的死黨。當然自己的好朋友找到了幸福是一件開心的事（除非對方是不合格的），但是，有哪一個人在深夜里不會忽然覺得有點失落？

雖然說你還是死黨的死黨，但是自己會覺得有點傷心是因為

－死黨不再找你了

－死黨有甚麼秘密，你也不是那個被分享的人，只有當死黨跟另一半吵架你才會稍微聽到一些怨言

－死黨似乎忘了你，很少或者再也不過問你的生活過得好嗎

－以前你想找死黨出去，二話不說馬上就走，現在死黨有自己的 schedule 了，要出去喝茶還要 “book” 他的時間

－怕一直找死黨，他會不耐煩，或者沒有空理你，因為太忙拍拖，畢竟自己的地位降級了

－少了那份關懷，雖然還有其他朋友，但是其他好朋友也不能代替死黨的那種情誼啊

唉。。。可是能夠怎樣？問了很多過來人，他們都說就這樣咯，要習慣。事實就是這樣，就好比說 “人會死，而且人死了，其他人會傷心” 這個道理，你要怎樣改變？還有甚麼辦法？就是這樣咯，撐過去咯，直到有一天找到另外一個死黨，或者找到自己的春天。

難道就這樣嗎？

2010-08-22T20:47:00.003+10:00

我真的很討厭自己為甚麼對事情人物感覺超級敏感。

很討厭自己那麼地消極。

很討厭自己很會哭。

很討厭自己。

信心是

2010-08-15T15:36:00.004+10:00

信心是

by 李順長

企業家在尚未有利潤之前，就勇敢投資。

航海家在尚未有海圖的大洋里，揚帆向前。

農夫指望秋天收成，在春天就播下種子。

兩個從來未有婚姻生活經驗的男女，將終身幸福交托對方。

活在此時空下的人類，相信有一位超時空的上帝。

基督徒深信耶穌十字架所流的寶血，可以洗淨一生罪污。

A letter from God

2010-08-13T16:08:00.002+10:00

To: YOU

Date: TODAY
From: GOD
Subject: YOURSELF
Reference: LIFE

This is God. Today I will be handling all of your problems for you. I do not need your help. So, have a nice day. I love you.

P.S. And remember... If life happens to deliver a situation to you that you cannot handle, do not attempt to resolve it yourself! Kindly put it in the SFGTD (something for God to do) box. I will get to it in MY TIME. All situations will be resolved, but in My time, not yours

Once the matter is placed into the box, do not hold onto it by worrying about it. Instead, focus on all the wonderful things that are present in your life now.

Should you have a bad day at work, think of the man who has been out of work for years.

Should you despair over a relationship gone bad, think of the person who has never known what it's like to love and be loved in return.

Should you grieve the passing of another weekend, think of the woman in dire straits, working twelve hours a day, seven days a week to feed her children.

Should your car break down, leaving you miles away from assistance, think of the paraplegic who would love the opportunity to take that walk.

Should you notice a new gray hair in the mirror, think of the cancer patient in chemo who wishes she had hair to examine.

Should you find yourself at a loss and pondering what is life all about, asking what is my purpose? Be thankful. There are those who didn't live long enough to get the opportunity.

Should you find yourself the victim of other people's bitterness, ignorance, smallness or insecurities, remember, things could be worse. You could be one of them!

Should you decide to send this to a friend, Thank you. You may have touched their life in ways you will never know! Now, you have a nice day.

God

God has seen you struggling, God says it's over. A blessing is coming your way.

How to be alone

2010-08-09T22:12:00.004+10:00

You know how sometimes it sucks to be single and alone, when people all around you have other things to do like dating and working and socializing, but your only option for the night was sit alone in the room and go online or whatever. This video teaches you how to be alone. I really like it!!! It's an encouragement for singles like me, plus it provides things to do when you're alone. WEE.

How to be Alone

by Tanya Davis

For the Beauty of the Earth

2010-08-04T20:26:00.008+10:00

When our conductor handed this sheet of hymn to us, I did not like this song at all. The song title is "大地好風光"! I was like, what kind of song and name is that? Super CNY! Because of that title I couldn't even take this song seriously. It is plain weird and amazingly hard to sing. So I sort of rejected the song.

But that's before I listened to the song in English.

For the Beauty of the Earth

text by Folliott S. Pierpoint, 1864

song by John Rutter

For the beauty of the earth

For the beauty of the skies

For the love

which from our birth

Over and around us lies

Lord of all to thee we raise

This our joyful hymn of praise

For the beauty of the hour

Of the day and of the night

Hill and vale

And tree and flower

Sun and moon and stars of light

Lord of all to thee we raise

This our joyful hymn of praise

For the joy of human love

Brother, sister, parent, child

Friends on earth

And friends above

For a gentle

Thoughts and mild

For a gentle

Thoughts and mild

Lord of all to thee we raise

This our joyful hymn of praise

For each perfect gift of thine

To our race so freely given

Graces human and divine

Flow'rs of earth and buds of heav'n

Lord of all to thee we raise

This our joyful hymn, our joyful hymn of praise

This our joyful hymn of praise

Ahhhh~~~~ such a beautiful song~~~

A comic a day

2010-08-03T08:00:00.001+10:00

曙光

2010-07-29T14:48:00.003+10:00

我們共同的回憶。一首曾經讓你我流淚的歌，如今還深深烙印在我的心裡。

曙光 sharon au

每当我很不开心的时候

我总爱对自己说

这世界不是小小的屋檐

天空好大好远

不经过寒冬

哪来梅花香

没有黎明

怎么会有曙光

人生的道路

崎岖或平淡

还不是要自己去承担

* 等待天亮

期待曙光

将心中阴霾都照亮

假如全世界

不再有黑暗

我的生命

会不会更灿烂 (重复)

谁能够只有快乐不悲伤

遇到错折不沮丧

人生的旅途怎样多变幻

要靠自己的判断

不经过寒冬

哪来梅花香

没有黎明

怎么会有曙光

人生的道路

崎岖或平淡

还不是要自己去承担

* 等待天亮

期待曙光

将心中阴霾都照亮

假如全世界

不再有黑暗

我的生命

会不会更灿烂 (重复)

給康旭

2010-07-27T18:01:00.006+10:00

人生真的很短暫

有時生活過得好

對於此事實

沒有甚麼很深的感觸

但每每發生一些事

例如死亡等等

才會勾回起那個震撼

今天一位年輕美麗

陽光的好女孩

離開我們了

我曾經那麼地欣賞她

但是不管多厲害的人

終究逃不過死亡

只有在世上短短的 22 年

現在正是女人十八變

最有魅力潛能展望夢想的時候

她卻要與病魔抗戰

然後就這樣。。。

我為她從此不會疼痛

而感謝上帝取走她

我為她還沒有經歷整個人生

而感到悲傷

我認為我們不需要一直責問上帝

為甚麼要這樣對待

我們親愛的好朋友

為甚麼要她和她家人

受這個苦

上帝總是有祂美好的旨意

畢竟她不是第一個死的年輕人

人終有一天

還是要面臨死亡

只是每個人不同時間而已

上帝把她放在我們當中

無非是要影響我們的人生

那她已經完成任務了

她可以安息了

這件事更加點醒我們

人真的很脆弱

不管我們覺得自己多厲害

能夠像上帝一樣造生命

能夠掌管自己的生活

能夠改變命運

但是

試問有誰逃得過死亡呢

人真的不需要上帝嗎

有誰能夠在自己愛的人的坟前

不感到無助

眇小脆弱

不感到自己無法控制局面

這又讓我們想到

我們在這個世界上

所追求的東西

是否值得我們用盡一生來賺取

我們人生的目標是甚麼呢

也就是說

會讓我們每天做我們每天做的事

是甚麼

是金錢嗎

是愛情嗎

是地位嗎

是名利嗎

是任何能夠在你死的那刻

帶走的嗎

正所謂世上的一切 “轉眼成空”

如果你知道明天這個黃金

就沒有價值了

你還會不會把今天所有的精力

全花費在要得到它嗎

還是你會去尋找

更值得追求的東西

人真的需要上帝

上帝差遣祂的愛子耶穌基督

為我們的罪

死在十字架上

好叫我們的靈不致滅亡

給了我們有永恆的盼望

耶穌說：“復活在我，生命也在我，信我的人，雖然死了，也必復活。”

（約翰福音11：25）

上帝應許給凡相信祂的人

有永恆的生命

雖然在世上肉體死了

但我們的靈將永遠與祂在一起

到了那時不再有疾病

不再有痛苦眼淚

只要你願意相信祂

“但基督已經從死里復活，成為睡了之人初熟的果子。。。

在亞當里眾人都死了；照樣，在基督里眾人也都要復活。”

（哥林多前書 15：20，22）

人因有了耶穌而有了盼望

這不是結束

而是一個新的開始

再會吧康旭！

For a moment there...

2010-07-26T10:46:00.002+10:00

Just a few hours ago, I was still sleeping on my bed. My radio clock rang at 9am, the volume was set too low so I can only hear a low buzzing sound in my dreams. The sunlight was streaming through the windows onto my face.

For a moment there... it felt like home.

It felt like school holidays, and mom was in the kitchen with the radio on, buzzing about preparing food and cleaning the house. I was, as usual, sleeping in and only waking up to the glaring sunlight and the busyness outside of my room.

For a moment there... I miss home.

I Shall Not Want

2010-07-19T12:23:00.002+10:00

The following is a short devotion story from Our Daily Bread that I read months ago.

I Shall Not Want

by Julie Ackerman Link

Read: James 4:1-10
Scripture of the day: "The world is Mine, and all its fullness." - Psalm 50:12

Before they were a week old, the eaglets were fighting over food. Neither was strong enough to hold up his head for more than a few seconds, so the pair looked like fuzzballs with bobble-heads attached. But whenever the parents brought food to the nest, the bigger eaglet was quick to peck down his brother to keep him from getting a single bite. His aggression would have been understandable if food was scarce, or if the parents couldn't be trusted to supply what he needed. But nothing could be further from the truth. The eaglets were bring fed fish many times their size; there was more than enough for both of them.

The greedy eaglet reminds me of our own foolishness when we try to get for ourselves something that belongs to someone else (James 4:1-5). Conflicts erupt because we want something that God has given to a friend, colleague, relative, or neighbor. Instead of asking God for what we need, we try to get what He's given to someone else (v.2). But God has something good for each of us. We don't need what belongs to anyone else. And we certainly never need to harm anyone to get what we need.

Our loving heavenly Father has more than enough for everyone.

"The secret of contentment is

To let the Lord supply;

Just do your part and put God first

And on His Word rely."

- D. De Haan

Food for Thought: Our needs will never exhaust God's supply.

1 wall post and 45 post comments

2010-07-18T23:20:00.002+10:00

One early morning about 7am, my email stated that there are 1 wall post and 45 post comments. So I clicked into the wall post and found this.

What a good breakfast. =D
Thanks guys, the silliness totally made up my day, as I was feeling rather down the night before.

Sound light and motion

2010-07-14T00:18:00.004+10:00

Wow, can't believe this guy is my lecturer and tutor. =D

http://www.innersense.com.au/mif/cumming.html

John Cummings. Super nice lecturer who remembers my name! =D hehe. He told us that we're the last students to be able to learn how to use a film camera, and with color film (they used to use black and white film). Although I really dread this cuz a roll of film si beh mahal and you wouldn't know you've ruined it during the process of sliding the film into the camera until it's been processed. Which means you would shoot painstakingly without knowing if it would turn out good or not. DIE.

打籃球記

2010-07-12T00:15:00.004+10:00

我昨天竟然有幸參加籃球比賽！！！！！好久沒有真正踏入一個室內籃球場了。每一次站在室內籃球場里，那個氣氛，那個 atmosphere，那個味道（不是汗味啦），那個球每打下去的回音，那個哨子聲，歡呼聲，真的讓我心中對籃球的火再次燃起！從小就一直對籃球很有 passion，每次要比賽或者去室內籃球場，我的小腹就會有很多的蝴蝶亂飛，腳也會軟，哈哈。那個感覺真的很妙，我做甚麼事都不會有這種感覺除了籃球。可見我對它的熱誠！可惜我的身高。。。哎算了，不常打也好不然會變到更男人婆哈哈。還會長肌肉。

Anyway，昨天打五人制全場，參加的隊伍有 Carlton，City 和我們 Camberwell。我是全場唯一的女生！哈哈。我想，我還不拿女生 mvp 就太丟人了。我們的隊伍其實看過去是最弱的，大部分都沒有接受過訓練，以前也不打籃球，軟趴趴的。其他的隊一個一個壮壮高高的，又穿很 kilat 的籃球鞋和籃球制服，嚇死我們。而且我們這組還有一個女生，看過去反正就是很弱就對了。哈哈。可是很意外的事情發生，就是我們竟然打敗 Carlton 那組！哇靠真的不敢想像哈哈哈。技巧上他們的確很明顯地比我們強啦，也許我們只是幸運而已，不過能夠打贏他們，開心死了我們！！！！哈哈。。。City 就不用講咯，他們太強了，站在那邊不用跑都可以贏我們。有贏一組就夠了哈哈。

打的時候發生了一件好笑的事，在防著 Carlton team 的一個開球手的時候，我看到了一個東西讓我不禁在思考到底為甚麼我要跟男生打球。那個人雖然身上穿著 t shirt，有短袖那種，可是他把球舉起來的時候，那個濃密的腋毛就這樣 *POOF* 出來！！！！而且是有袖子噢！！！嚇死我了。雖然我的臉是鎮定的可是我的內心很澎湃。好采我沒有反應大到倒退幾步不然太明顯了哈哈。

我覺得這次比賽我還算對得起我自己，我真的有盡力去打，防守的時候我都會盡全力跑回去死命防，進攻時會幫控球手 screen 或者找空位。只是有一件事覺得可惜，我不敢投球。每次球拿到手就會猶豫，猶豫的時候那些 giants 都過來了，所以一直沒有機會進球。可是到最後有勇敢地投，終於進一粒！呵呵。

這麼久沒有運動，忽然那麼激烈地打比賽（而且是跟男生，他們照樣撞我啊，才剛下場不到一分鐘久跌倒的我，而且很多次我都會 screen 他們，被他們撞死了）現在的我正在承受後遺症。全身酸痛到不行！不是普通的痛！連笑我的腰和背都會。。。啊。。。還有我的頸項緊到隨時隨地都會抽筋。不過很爽啦~

BIG DAMMIT

2010-07-10T23:10:00.002+10:00

The worst feeling is... when you and your bunch of friends have done a shooting, everything had gone really well and you think you've got all the footages you need, the next day when you log and capture it onto the editing software, you realised all the footages you shot the day before were gone. *POOF* *and it became coco crunch!*

I don't know what to feel. I'm not feeling mad or disappointed or frustrated. From the second I realised that this horrible thing is happening, my feelings have been -----------------------------, one single straight line. Have I gone numb because it hurt too much? No I'm pretty sure that's not it... Am I hiding the true feelings I have so they won't explode and make a huge mess? Hmmm... I guess it's so horrible that I could not believe it's happening, thus the ignorance.

My first doco!

2010-07-06T23:01:00.003+10:00

I know I've been posting this all around until people are getting bored. Still, it's my baby and it deserves to be posted on my bloggie.

Melbourne Busker Jessica Paige

The first documentary I did with friends for a subject in Deakin University. This is a documentary about Jessica Paige, a Melbourne busker, why does she busk and how is it like for her. To know more about Jessica, visit her website http://www.jessicapaige.net/

Shot on a Panasonic HVX202, mini DV tape.
Editing software: Final Cut Pro

Crew: Steffen Andre Hagen, Emily Yii, Becky Chan, Savrina Nursalim

My baby. =D

The following is the same video but with English subtitles, for easy viewing.

I've learnt so much from this experience. Making a doco is totally different from making a film. I could go on and on about how I feel about the process and what I learnt, but just got back from Clayton Gospel Camp (an awesome one!!!) and feeling super tired. Will update this post when I'm feeling all good again! Enjoy!

super unlucky right foot

2010-07-01T17:28:00.004+10:00

First, I strained the back of my right ankle.

Next, I banged the exact same part (only more to the right) against my wooden bed.

Then, I dropped my water bottle on top of that foot.

What next? Chainsaw that foot off?

status update:
1. Tripped on my right foot on the stairs.

2010-07-01T00:39:00.000+10:00

問世間情為何物

I Shall Not Want

2010-06-22T23:48:00.002+10:00

The following is a short devotion story from Our Daily Bread that I read months ago.

I Shall Not Want
by Julie Ackerman Link

"The secret of contentment is
To let the Lord supply;
Just do your part and put God first
And on His Word rely."
- D. De Haan

Food for Thought: Our needs will never exhaust God's supply.

極端的待遇

2010-06-21T23:30:00.001+10:00

有時感覺到我對身邊的朋友太冷淡。

對比較好的朋友則是太過熱情。

不好厚。太極端。

人生計畫大轉變

2010-06-19T00:01:00.005+10:00

忽然有一個念頭。。。。

其實以後作家庭主婦也不錯。。。哈哈。可以有很多時間打理家，把家弄到漂漂亮亮，還可以在家（重點！）做很多很多好吃的菜和點心，又可以有時間陪孩子，也可以趁孩子上學的時候到處 shopping，跟其他家庭主婦朋友 hang out。哈哈多好啊！

好！我決定了，小時候甚麼畫家導演模特兒攝影師演員願望全部丟遠遠，我現在的志願是做家庭主婦。木啊哈哈哈。

2010-06-18T01:54:00.003+10:00

你曾不曾忽然一瞬間
用全然不同的眼光
和對對方的感覺
來看待你身邊
平時跟你很要好的朋友
會感到很適應不來嗎
會感到很奇怪嗎
會不會想說
“他到底是誰？”
“為甚麼他看起來那麼陌生？”
平時的依靠
忽然變成不是依靠
而是傷害你的
你還能夠繼續站立得穩嗎

boredom is the best creative inspiration

2010-06-17T16:09:00.005+10:00

I think that a lot of amazing creative things are made when people are at their most bored state. Like me, some of my best drawings are drawn during Physics class or Maths class in high school. And I used to spend class time brainstorming for all sorts of program ideas and stuffs. Even now, some of my juiciest ideas come during the really boring lectures I went to. I've also seen my talented film friend's videos made when he really has nothing to do at home. How important boredom is! That's when all the creative things come in! You are sooo bored that all kinds of crazy things come into your mind. You think about really stupid and impossible things (because no one cares and no one is there to tell you they are silly), that allows you to think out of the box and maybe you can also get some inspirations from the things around you.

I really hope this can happen to me right now. I'm feeling really really bored at the moment. Although there are lots of things to be done, I just don't have the motivation to lift a finger. Uhhhhhhhhh. Come on juicy ideas! Fill me up~ I've already wasted another day not doing editing, researching on trips, brainstorming for an event, and all sorts of other things. Screw the weather! If the wind had not been blowing at 65km/h (which I think is not happening on Box Hill but who knows how strong it might be at Burwood, so I didn't take the risk) I would have gone to Deakin to do some shit editing. Screw film. You can't make a film without a camera (the most basic thing, if you don't think about the audio and lighting and such), so you need money to buy a camera. And more money of course to get other really good gears. You can't edit a film without an editing software, and yes you guess right, you need to spend money on software and they are usually very very expensive. And the software needs to be installed on a really good computer because of the requirements and bla bla so you need a really good computer and other equipments like hard drives, DVD+R and such. Money again. Everything is money money money. And these things that I have just listed out are only the very very very basic things.

Anyway, I'm really bored. Inspiration and Motivation, come visit me please. Although I'm really anti-social right now, I don't mind socializing with you both. You can bring along Money as well.

錢啊錢

2010-06-15T18:12:00.001+10:00

請問在短短不到一個月的時間，可以做甚麼來賺一點錢？我不想做一個只會花錢不會賺錢的大小姐。打工不是很行因為沒有人願意請只能做一個月的工人。給我一些建議吧 please！

付出的代價

2010-06-14T00:40:00.002+10:00

我領悟到了。。。

之前 Screen Practitioners class 的 lecturer 偶爾會邀請一些 Hollywood 的大導演和 Deakin 以前的學生（如今有點小成就的）來鼓勵同學們。她們都一致地說一件事。

“ You need to be really persistent.”

我還沒真正經歷到這句話，因為還沒有遇到甚麼狀況。但是，我領悟到了一個很相像的道理。

要追求夢想，追求你想要做的事情，臉皮真的要練到很厚！

crazy film shot in one long take

2010-06-11T11:55:00.004+10:00

How is this possible?!

I'm now watching a 2002 film Russian Ark. What's so crazy about this film is... Not the high action, not the amazing story (although it is amazing), not the fine editing.

BUT! *finger wagging furiously*

THIS 96 MINUTE FILM IS SHOT ALL IN ONE TAKE! NO CUTS!

CRAZINESS.

During the whole 96 minute, the director uses his Sony HDW-F900 steadicam to shoot it. There are no stops! No cuts! Imagine holding that huge camera for a whole 96 minute. Just imagine how good everyone is at cooperating. The actors, the performances, the crew. If someone screws one short scene up, this whole film won't be one take anymore. They would have to start all over again. Who arranged the whole cinematography and movements and everything??? This is crazy!

Goodness. How did they do it????

This film was shot on 23 December 2001, in the Russian State Hermitage Musuem, in 33 rooms, with over 2000 orchestrated casts. It was not shot by using normal tapes but by using an uncompressed harddisk which could hold 100 minutes. Imagine high close they were to running out of memory, if some actor were to say his or her lines longer. For your information, they only succeeded at the 4th take. The first 3 takes were ruined due to technical difficulties. This is madness!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! MADNESS!!!!!!!!!

2010-06-09T22:03:00.003+10:00

can anyone tell me what is happening to me. why do i feel these things. why do i feel like i need to blame my friends for everything. especially my closer friends. why do i feel like its their fault even when i clearly know its not. why do i feel separated. why do i feel that im changing, and they are as well. well its true that we are always changing, but, i feel that the friendship they have for me is changing. you know what maybe i shouldnt think too much. but but but why do i keep on feeling angry? im a mad mad girl. uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. perhaps im too demanding. yes. i feel so insecure.

2010-06-08T20:21:00.002+10:00

最近不知道為甚麼老是嘴饞。是冬天惹的禍嗎？不對吧，上個冬天我一點也不像現在醬啊。不知道啦，反正這次嘴饞很嚴重！老是想咬東西。雖然肚子飽了，還是不甘願要吃點東西。而且，一下真的很想吃這個，一下真的很想吃那個。甚麼都想吃就對了。腦里每天計畫要吃這個那個的，而且吃完這一餐就很等不及下一餐！感覺上是為了食物才繼續活下去。很糟。到了超級市場更是不得了，花錢如流水，因為甚麼都想吃嘛。我家的冰櫃和食物庫都塞滿滿的，可以說是硬塞因為都沒有甚麼位放了。每次有機會出去買東西吃，很難下決定因為甚麼都想要，這個好那個也好。

救命啊！我不要變更肥！可是，這個嘴饞的病，很難控制的啦！

Which to chooooooose

2010-06-06T23:39:00.001+10:00

如果是你，你會选哪一個？

French New Wave

Hong Kong Action Cinema

Surrealism

請告訴我你的答案！

2010-06-03T23:58:00.000+10:00

Just want to let it out.

WHY ARE YOU TAKING SUCH A BLOODY LONG TIME TO REPLY!!!

Communication

2010-05-26T00:05:00.003+10:00

Once, there was a device call Telephone.

Friends call you on telephones.

Then, there was a service call text messages.

Friends text you, and stop calling you. They would rather wait ages for your reply rather than giving you a call.

And now, there is this program we call MSN Messenger.

'Friends' find you online, and stop texting or calling you. If they don't see you online, they can't find you.

Material Desires

2010-05-25T17:47:00.003+10:00

I just went to a music shop and touched a $1200-worth of guitar, Maton brand. It sounds crazily amazing and is perfect to the touch. I WANT IT!!! All of these trigger my desires. So now I'm just going to list out a list of things that I want now.

When I was younger I subscribed to a West Malaysian catalogue 銀河, it's like a catalogue that sells lots of things from cosmetics jeweleries stickers clothes bags to toys and a whole bunch of miscellaneous stuffs. Things that young high school girls LOVE. I was pretty poor in my high school days (still am now) and couldn't really afford any of the things although they are cheap. There are so many things that I wanted on the catalogue. Usually what I did was I would list out all the things that I WANT (doesn't matter if I can afford it or not), I list the weight and serial numbers and price. Then, I select the ones that I like moderately and cross them out of the list. Then I move on to select the ones that I think I can live without. Cross. Finally what I'm left with are the ones that I cannot live without and seriously like. I cross out the ones that I couldn't possibly afford. In the end I just give up buying anything because the postage fee isn't really worth it if I only buy a few things from the catalogue.

Such a great method.

Okay! List!

I want........

1. A super good acoustic guitar which costs above $800.
2. Acoustic drum set.
3. Ukulele. (I saw a really good one just now for $99)
4. iMac.
5. Useful Mac softwares.
6. My own house in Australia.
7. A small sleek red car.
8. Lots and lots of clothes and accessories.
9. Cool hats.
10. A good body.
11. Summer dresses.
12. Unlimited supply of polaroid films.
13. Red camera.
14. Manfrotto tripod.
15. Lighting set.
16. My own photography studio.
17. Film crew.
18. Lotus caramelised biscuits. (I still can't believe they're selling it in Ta Kiong and not in Australia! GERAMNYA!)
19. My own photography website.
20. Polaroid camera bag or case.
21. Havaianas blue and white thongs.
22. Nice tanned skin.
23. Bicycle.
24. Helmet.
25. My own basic skateboard ramp.
26. Indoor basketball.
27. Modern Japanese themed bedroom.
28. Dark black hair with gray and blue streaks.
29. Walk-in closet.
30. To be able to buy lots and lots of food and confectionery that are on sell at the moment.

DAMN MY DESIRES!

最美麗的季節

2010-05-17T17:36:00.004+10:00

Autumn.

我愛！

God's creation is truly wonderful.

Can't help but notice that trees in Melbourne are SOOOOO beautiful.

有一種草原上奔跑的感覺。

2010-05-14T14:05:00.001+10:00

最近的感覺。。。

真的不知道怎麼形容。

感覺上這個世界不是真的。

我好像會從睡夢中醒過來。

醒來後還有更多的大事要我去弄。

醒來後還有很多美好的事。

所以現在。

真的不知道怎樣解釋。

這個平淡無趣的夢。

我要醒來！

I'll walk a mile for an Emily

Epic Salesman

低等人類

頑固？ 有想法？

忽然間。。。

品格決定成敗

The Atrocity of Atheism

那一天當我睡去

味道

My weakness for eyeliner

What we were taught since young

Personality Disorder Test

是好朋友與否

I'm 22. Starting today.

Math Atheist

我吐

Gastroscopy

Gastroscopy - examination of the gullet and stomach

What is gastroscopy?

How is a gastroscopy performed?

Why is gastroscopy useful?

Can gastroscopy be used to examine other parts of the body?

How far can a gastroscope see?

Are there other uses for gastroscopy?

Why doesn't my doctor just send me for an X-ray?

Is gastroscopy safe?

《忐忑》

Rearview Mirror Reflections

No bloggie

Tonight is THE night.

O Holy Night!

Winterish Summer?

HANDS!

Gym... or food...

Alpacaaaaaa

Halloween shiz

A Worry List

Common Language

在草原上奔跑

Pencil and Eraser

The brevity of life

PhotoJojo my new love

Comic of the day

What is Secure?

有一天

Kick-Ass stuffs from Photojojo

Lighting IS IMPORTANT!

High-Tech Communication

God... Always Answers Prayer

失落啊失落

信心是

A letter from God

How to be alone

For the Beauty of the Earth

A comic a day

曙光

給康旭

For a moment there...

I Shall Not Want

1 wall post and 45 post comments

Sound light and motion

打籃球記

BIG DAMMIT

My first doco!

super unlucky right foot

I Shall Not Want

極端的待遇

人生計畫大轉變

boredom is the best creative inspiration

錢啊錢

付出的代價

crazy film shot in one long take

Which to chooooooose

Communication

Material Desires

最美麗的季節

頑固？有想法？